I'm not in Love ??

You know I'm the kind of typical person you meet everyday. I beleive love is something that cant' come that easily, but sometimes the strangest of things may happen. It just happened that say I am too practical to fall in love ...

But what is Love in the first hand? Is it wanting someone so badly that nothing else matters more... nope, that is infatuation. Is it liking someone that much that you feel she is great? Nope that is a crush.
Real Love is ... something I can't tell you because I dont' what real love means.

You know the touching story, a girl and boy ride a bike, suddenly the boy starts going very fast.. the girl asks him to stop... but he asks her to remove his helmet as it is very stuffy and asks her to wear it instead for a few minutes and she too does it. He then asks her to tighly hug him and say to him that she loved him... She says and he now slows down.....

But at that instant the bike crashed into the vehicle in front of them, both were terribly struck. the boy died, the girl survived with minor injuries. But the real truth came out at the inquest....

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The boy had known that the brakes werent working ... so he made her wear the helmet and then asked her to tell him that she loved him. He had wanted it to hear it as the last words before he died....

You know, that's bitter sweet and really touching... true love some would say....

But maybe we all got it wrong, feeling bad when the girl you loved dearly flirted with someone else is not love.. it's possesiveness... Loving the girl because you loved her for what she is -the bubbly, charming, young lady who makes you want to cry out with joy... thats true love.... but even then a part of me dies when she did do something like that cause you are no longer special just one more.... that hurts really much...

I know what I'm feeling is wrong, but I cant help it. Maybe we were never meant for each other, maybe she just wanted someone else and not the me...

Am I in love?? No, there was no one to love in the first place. and two even if were, I'm too selfish for that kind of love..

I'm not in love..
It's just a phase I'm going through...

Hope what all I said is coming true

Living in the now

Well, suddenly everything seems different somehow for me right now.
Had been reading some books as usual, when suddenly a couple of opinions about life in genereal surfaced through me. The fact is that not so much as a opinion, it's simply that I prefer to live my life that way.
The first thing, is that I think that life would be better if we could always live in the NOW. Well always planning ahead and thinking about the past is going to get us nowhere,after all the beauty of a ride is missed if we looked at the smoke coming from the back or the road in the front, it's in admiring the ride from within the car and looking all around you.
Then, I have suddenly grown up -say that the past no longer threatens me and presto! suddenly there is this feeling I'm happy but which suddenly goes out again, maybe the day It stays for longer is the day to rejoice.